~=iS iT mE?? oR sOmeOnE eLsE=~

words for today is MOCKING~

mau sangat kan liat aku mcm yg ko ckp2 & kepoh2 arah org lain..
so, skrg aku buat la.. kan memuaskan hati mu..
ko la yg paling~ kepalingan yg bnr mcm urg tuha2~ kunun la..
but the real thing is u r NOT..

apa2 pun.. lantak la apa ko kan buat..
aku ni buat der~ saja.. biar ko tekanan sana sorg2.. jd gila ka apa ka~ antam tah ko..
nda la ku kan tahu apa2.. nda ku b'minat..
yg penting aku ngurus idup ku & kuarga ku..
alum brapa kali ku kan sibuk psl ko tu..
it's not worth to me, it's just wasting my time to know & think about it ahakz..

~=hEaRtaChe aTtacK aGaiN=~

waRrrrRgghhhhhhhh... GERAM!!
buduw punya manusia..
knp la ko asuh sgt2 buduw ko tu..
kurang2kan la k..

jan la tlampau eksen time d office..
blagak mcm tau sgala2 padahal U R NOT!!
bkin malu.. eeeee~

tahap kesabaran melampaui batas suda ni..
liat sj la apa jadi.. lau lezer mulut suda bebuka, siap sedia saja la ko..
biar ko tau tinggi langit & bumi..

org lain bule la tahan & diam.. tapi aku nda..
sorry la mo bagi muka dgn ko lagi..
buduw punya jelama..
b'trip labih saja~ eeeeeee~ bkin malu!!!

dasar BATU mmg cematu..
x tau malu!! suda la kambang2an time ada visitor d office..
then kuat kiap pantat org2 bsr supaya femes.. buuuuuuu!!!!! bkin malu!!!!!!!!

~= gO aWaY stRess, hEaRtaChe, hEaDacHe.. bOtH oF u maKe mE siCk.. pLeaSe LeaVe mE aLonE~ =~

aRrrrGgghh~

can't explain what i'm feel..

make me very2 tired & so sick..
sometimes i can't stand it anymore..

wanna make myself's FREE & FREEDOM every time, anywhere & any places..

wanna fly like a bird~ to feel the fresh air in the air

totally u r not understand me..

totally u r what i'm thinking it before..

totally u r not doing what u should to do as a *******

totally u r looks like not changes after ******* even u give me a lot promise

u r SELFISH!

all promises come out from ur mouth's NOTHING or ZERO for me..

it's not true.. looks like u r LIE to me.. u r LIE!!!!!

i don't like it & hate it this word---> LIE!!

my trusting to u is not 100% like last time..

i'm too tired to mess with u every day.. just to make sure u did what u suppose to do everyday..

i'm heartache when i see u too relaxing.. too watching tv..
attitude & style looks like a kids.. and can't thinking like a mature people..

come on~ u should know what u suppose to do.. u r not kids anymore..

u need to be a mature people like others..

u r looks like don't care if someone related to u doing something..
u just watch them until they r finished.. u don't help them..
no wonder if u have something to do, no body want to help u.. SELFISH again~

i see others people can do anything even they married & have a kids..
but u.. u r not..
i'm really2 sad if i'm thingking about it.. really2 sad..

i can't say anything, don't know what i'm suppose to say & spit it out from my mouth..

looks like my mount is locked by something..
i'm just put it in my heart what i'm feel..
and just pray & invoke to Allah, hopefully all this things will change it soon as possible =(

~=miSs mY fmLy =( huHu~ =~

salam..

today's 15th Sep 2010 @ 6 Syawal.. hari raya ke-6..
terasa rindu sgt2 dgn fmly kandung sndri..
hari raya lagi huuu~ satu dugaan besar bagi ku..
tp apa kan daya, hanya mampu b'sabar..
sbb ini la alam & lumrah hidup bagi org2 yg baru m'dirikan rumah tangga..

~=miSs hiM sOoOo muCh!=~

salam..

i'm alone again hee~ sabar jak la..
hopefully u'll be ok in Vietnam.. aminnn~
can't wait to see u on 18th Aug 2010 (^_~)

hmmmm tired sgt2 ari ni sbb buat kuih then trs tlg2 prepare utk bsungkai..
hopefully bisnes jln dgn baik... amin~

~=MakE sOme "KuiH raYa"=~

salam~

yupp.. buat kuih la~ pa lagi kan.. mau cari duit..
hmmm will upload it the pixxa (^_~)

~=My BiG daY (^_~)=~

04.06.2010
NikaH
dEtiK2 AkHiR zaMaN BuJanG QuE (^_~)

M'ciUm tGn sOrg LeLaki yG TeLah saH m'JaDi sUaMi QuE

(^_~)

06.06.2010
fLowErs
bLuE tuRqOisE + wHitE

Us (^_~)

(^_~)
fEeL sO haPpy

(^_~)

(^_~)
sPeeChLeSS.. caN't dEscRibE waT wE'rE fEeL

12.06.2010
Labuan F.T
hOpEfuLLy HappiLy eVeR aFteR

wiTh nOttY bOy.. iRsYad sYamiE

wiTh hiS FmLy

Peace upon u~

syukur allhamdulillah.. akhr nya aku menamatkan zaman bujang ku dgn majlis yg cukup indah dlm hidup ku walaupun majlis tersebut tidak la semeriah mcm org lain tp bagi ku smua nya memadai dan m'gembirakan aku & kluarga ku.. walaupun bnyk dugaan & aral melintang yg d harungi dlm majlis tersebut, berkat kesabaran & doa yg tidak putus2.. allhamdulillah smua nya ok & bjalan dgn lancar..

syukur allhamdulillah~ (^_^)

i'm satisfy with what i'm prepare & doing in two months.. with some kind help from others people, like my fmly, my luvly cousin & some of people which is not related to our fmly.. hmmm they are so kind!

thanks a lot to all my parents, my fmly (from mama & babah side), luvly cousin and others people.. thanks for your kind help.. really2 appricate it so much! i'll not forget it till im gone..

and thanks a lot also to bey's fmly.. for our wed ceremony in Labuan.. really2 appricate it so much your kind help.. even got some problem, likes bla bla bla & bla tuuuuuuuut (wink*3) & etc..

but all of it i'm satisfy~ 

~=SeiZe tHe daY=~

"Seize The Day"

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past
I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real
So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real
Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

~=DeaR gOd=~

=DEAR GOD=
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line...
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find...
While I recall all the words you spoke to me...
Can't help but wish that I was there...
Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah...
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is...
to hold her when I'm not around...
when I'm much too far away...
We all need that person who can be true to you...
But I left her when I found her..
And now I wish I'd stayed...
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired...
I'm missing you again oh no Once again...
There's nothing here for me on this barren road...
There's no one here while the city sleepsand all the shops are closed...
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you...
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah...
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is..
to hold her when I'm not around...
when I'm much too far away...
We all need that person who can be true to you...
I left her when I found her...
And now I wish I'd stayed...
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired...
I'm missing you again oh noOnce again...
Some search, never finding a way...
Before long, they waste away...
I found you, something told me to stay...
I gave in, to selfish ways...
And how I miss someone to hold...
when hope begins to fade...
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line...
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find...
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is...
to hold her when I'm not around...
when I'm much too far away...
We all need the person who can be true to you...
I left her when I found her...
And now I wish I'd stayed...
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired...
I'm missing you again oh noOnce again...